SORRIE!! I'M LATE FOR MONTHS!!
Hihi ppl.. actually want to do hw de.. but end up tagging blogging etc.. finally can start to blog le.. after doing so many activation of died account.. and refreshing my forgotten passwords.. mm.. dunno where to start from.. if continue from the last post then my post can go join Guiness World Record.. the longest post ever!! hahax.. actually dec should update de.. then now then use comp.. really blue moon le.. i really feel bad.. cos see my tag board still got ppl tag.. haax.. my fans club.. so wei le bu yao gu fu them.. i post! for the popular demand.. (and dun laugh at me le can.. gr..)
mm... i think band is the most imp thing to me currently cos exams are over.. syf coming.. was veri veri sad last few weeks.. cry almost everi day.. cos mr png told ms wee i cannot make it 2 weeks ago.. want change me.. tat time really veri helpless.. dunno wat to do except to cry.. really got so bad meh.. i ask myself.. but maybe really got tat bad ba.. tat day ms wee talked to me and py.. ask whether i wanna continue to play or give up timpani to let py play.. how the hell am i suppose to answer.. she told me i should insist in playing.. but should kana te kang by mr png like siao.. than she say its ok for me to cry but cry le jiu over and she think tat i can play de.. i did a lot of thinking.. should i really insist? or giving up is better for the band.. so i zhou yi bu suan yi bu.. if dun give up then pull the band down how? then give up le all the effort will go down the drain.. tat day went home alone.. then surprisingly out of the blue i saw ren jie.. he always managed to appear whenever i very down.. then later jiu talk crap.. -.-
the following friday.. which was the school freaking anniversary.. the nite before received a msg from theresa.. at 1st didnt know wat she meant.. but after she told me the msg was from mr lum i broke down. he ask theresa to send me this.
'help me tell samantha tat my 4 gfs at home hope tat she'll cheer up soon :)' make no difference to u reading eh? but i am crying in front of the comp now. same reaction as tat time.. it was one of the most touching and encouraging thing tat any1 said to me.. i hope u are reading mr lum.. thx.. then i reply him saying thx and stuff.. he replied back.
'No prob. i hope you pull yourself together fast too. Perform well today! (refering to the sch anniversary thing)' omg.. this had a greater impact.. then i apologised for not meeting their expectations blar..
'Don't have to always live up to our expectations. Just do your very best! Put your heart and soul into it. Trust yourself.' touching? i seriously think tat it was soo touching.. maybe tats why his gf fall for him.. BUT i never fall for him.. state first..
too bad.. tat day i still didnt perform well.. the practice before performance still kana scolded.. haix..
the next day. sat. debbie called me in the morning.. and warned me not to cry.. then say if i cry have to give her one thousand dollars.. wth.. cheng huo da jie.. but tat day even worst.. suddenly dunno how to play tempo primo.. made png so angry.. then ask lum take me out of the hall to teach me.. py took over.. i almost wanted to cry.. eyes kept flooding.. but held back.. (partly dun want pay one thousand dollars).. i dun blame pow pow.. but was really very sad.. u imagine la.. if u were me also veri sad de ma..
then tat day after band lum msg me again.. tempt me to cry.. i'll just write wat he say.. cos i dun really rmb wat i replied..
'We (png and lum) know you've tried very hard. But this stretch i need you to push on more. 1 more week to stabilize that part, prac hard, feel the accents. i'm sure as much as we're reluctant to replace you, you're as reluctant to be replaced. Do your best! Don't let yourself down, and you'll be fine :)'
'Don't say sorry so soon. 1 more week! Prove yourself. You can. 1 more week is all you have and all you need. I'm determined not to switch players and so should you.' then i ask if mr png is angry and help me say sorry..
'Haha. He' s not angry la. Really. He's as unwilling as i am to switch player for timpani.' goodness.. i guess he went thru all this before.. tats why he knew all the right thing to say to a person tat is so sad over band..
i guess this is really getting longer.. and i think i will post abt the band camp in a different post.. i cant believe it.. i am using a windows 98 in year 2007.. no wonder the 7th night sound so.. adagio.. (did i guessed the spelling right?)